October 23, 2023
I woke up at 4 a.m. I wrote my blog and went back to sleep around 6:30 a.m. I woke up again at 8 a.m. I got up, got dressed, made tea and fed the animals. I am doing an overnight pet sitting job until Wednesday. I went to let the chickens out of their coop and there was one chicken outside of the coop. My client had left a note saying there were 3 chickens and to count them when they went in at night. I know I had counted 2 chickens and 1 rooster in the coop last night. I would message them tonight about it, maybe they meant 3 chickens and didn’t count the rooster.
Angel was awake and got dressed. Then we headed to work. On the way to work, I turned off and visited the place where the horrible accident I witnessed Saturday occurred. I was ready to go back there. The cause of the accident was the driver had hit a cow. The cow was still there. The semi truck he was driving was obviously a grocery truck because there were groceries scattered everywhere. I told Angel to stay in the truck and keep listening to her “On The Banks of Plum Creek” audiobook and that I would be right back. I stood on the burned ground where the man had died and prayed a blessing for his family.
I continued on to work. My first job was just down the road from my house and I stopped at home on the way to pick up Angel’s breakfast and lunch that Christopher had made for her before he went to work. I am so grateful to have Christopher. He is a good man.
When I got to my first job, I received a mean and condescending text message from my mom telling me I was not good enough and never would be. I felt like I was dealing with enough at the moment from witnessing that accident and did not need to receive a message like that on top of everything. I became so angry I was shaking. I responded by telling her to stop being mean and instead I needed her support right now. She continued on being how she is, so I asked her to please leave me alone and she did. I thought about blocking her but I’ve done that been there and I knew that wasn’t the answer. I prayed for guidance on how to be at peace with my mom as she is. I messaged my sister and some friends for support and reminded myself that I was strong enough to handle anything that came my way and I am.
Angel and I listened to “On The Banks of Plum Creek” while I cleaned and it was soothing to listen to. When I walking to the pickup as I was leaving that job, I noticed all different kinds of bees buzzing around some cowpen daisies and tie vines. I watched them for a few minutes and took pictures.
At my next job, Angel talked with my clients and played with her toy ponies. I had remembered it was a school day later on after work and that I didn’t have her do schoolwork today. It’s ok, I will remember tomorrow.
After work I drove to my pet sitting job. Angel and I watched “Where the Red Fern Grows”, played with dogs and had a relaxing evening. Around 6:30p.m. I fed the animals and went to put the chickens away. There were 2 chickens and 1 rooster in the coop. I messaged my client asking if there was a 3rd chicken. She said they did have 3 chickens and 1 rooster but one of the chickens had disappeared. I told her the extra chicken I saw this morning. She was excited that the lost chicken had came back. I told her it hadn’t got in the coop though and I would look to find its roosting place. She said to check this top part of the coop that I hadn’t noticed. I checked and the chicken was there. My client was so happy their lost chicken was back. I was glad for them. What a wonderful event.
I talked on the phone with Christopher, my sister and a friend while Angel took a long bath. I received clarity on how to be kind to my mom but stand firm in honoring my inner guidance and let her be how she needs to be. I clearly saw how my whole life I had been ignoring my intuition when around my mom by trying to please her so she would be nice to me and love me. It never worked! I was being a people pleaser instead of following what I knew was right for me. The kingdom of heaven is within. This was a huge awakening. I was so grateful for receiving this clarity. A burden I hadn’t realized was there was lifted off of my shoulders.
When Angel got out of the bath, I showered and we went to bed. I fell asleep around 9:30 p.m.
I am grateful for clarity.
I am grateful for chickens.
I am grateful for my sister.
I am grateful for my husband.
I am grateful for my children.
I am grateful for my friends.
I am grateful for my mom.
Thank you for reading my blog and being a part of my life. I dearly appreciate you.