The Pain is All in My Head

Dear Diary and Friends,

I came home from work Tuesday night feeling intense pain in my stomach. It had been a long day, I was glad to be home and back in paradise. Earlier, after work and before heading home I had gone to the grocery store. I was hungry and ate a couple handfuls of Angel’s sesame sticks. It had been a really long time since I had eaten anything processed. I normally don’t desire to eat any food that is not either fresh or cooked as a whole food. Regardless I ate these sesame sticks and shortly afterward my stomach started to hurt a little bit. I figured it would pass once the sesame sticks were digested and didn’t give it much thought. By the time I arrived home my stomach was hurting worse. I continued to ignore it for the most part. I talked to Christopher for a bit and told him about my stomach hurting after eating those sesame sticks. Then I went inside to make Angel supper and get her ready for bed.

My stomach started hurting really bad and I thought I was going to throw up. I wasn’t sure if I could finish taking care of Angel. So I went outside to get Christopher to see if he would be able to help. He was sitting watching the trees. I knelt in front of him and hugged him (his hugs are the best) and I laid my head on his lap. I told him I was really really sick and started crying. I feel so safe to be real with this wonderful man. I went into a sort of trance or zone…hmm…something like that, then I said, much to my surprise, “I feel so dirty”. I’m not sure where that came from but when I said those words a shift happened inside of me. I felt the Holy Spirit there and then I felt the pain leave my body and go into Christopher.

I continued to hold Christopher and cry. He said to me something like, “this is more than those sesame sticks”. I shook my head in agreement, it was definitely way more. I was still in that sort of trance state for a while, crying with my head on Christopher’s lap.

Angel came outside and I naturally was instantly back into mom mode. I got up, went inside with her and got her ready for bed. I was amazed, the pain was gone. I had been hurting so bad and now “poof” it was gone. I checked my body and there was absolutely no pain at all of any sort in my stomach. Wow. I’ve never experienced anything like that before in my life. I’m still blow away by it. It made me realize that the intense pain I was feeling in my body was all caused by my thoughts. When I used to be sick all the time I would go to doctor after doctor only to be told over and over…it was all in my head. At the time those words weren’t helpful to me because I didn’t believe it was true and because it didn’t tell me how to change my thoughts and I was still sick…but maybe it was true. When I changed my diet in November of 2006 to one of mostly fresh fruits and vegetables my body and mind healed in incredible ways. I understand how that worked. I was putting food in my body that supported and nourished it rather than food that harmed it. That makes logical sense to me. What happened on Tuesday night is beyond all of that. It has me thinking that maybe we can heal ourselves without having to change anything except our thoughts. Maybe our thoughts create every single thing in our reality. Not just some things but EVERYTHING, every single thing. I’ve been told and have read this concept before but I didn’t understand how big it really was. It’s HUGE! It’s always all in my mind. Now I want to figure out what thoughts cause the pain in my neck, shoulders, back and hips…lol. I am ready. Thank you God. Thank you, thank you, thank you for this beautiful gift. I look forward to experiencing more miracles in this amazing life of mine.

Thank y’all for reading my blog and being a part of my life.

With love and gratitude,

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