Sunday September 21, 2025
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for adventures.
- Thank you for insights
- Thank you for friends
- Thank you for love
I love you!
Dear Diary,
I woke at 2 AM. I caught up on all my blog post and slept more from 7:30 AM to 8:45 AM. I quickly made my bed and tea and got dressed. I drove the 4-wheeler over to Angel’s friends house and picked her up.
We came home, I fed Angel and we got ready for church. I finished loading pictures on my blog and posted it. It felt so good to be all caught up.
I walked to church and Angel rode her bicycle. I greeted people, then I sat at the table in the back with Angel. I was feeling tired and was grateful to be sitting in the back. I sorted and organized the folders sitting on the table that had children’s coloring pages and games. Then I did a Nehemiah word search game while listening to the sermon. Angel was acting out by making noises and being distracting. I asked her what was going on with her and she glared at me angrily. I told her she that she didn’t have to talk to me but she couldn’t be distracting. She thought about it and calmed down.
After church, people helped me clean up the leftovers from the rummage sale and we went home. I rested, then I fed Angel and picked up a couple of her friends to take to Zims hot springs. We took the long way to Zims, on the backroads to Lost Lake which was requested by Angels friends.
We got to Zims and swam for an hour or so. Then the kids were hungry so we went to McCall to get something to eat. While we were in McCall, I stopped at an Airbnb that I’m the caretaker for and started laundry washing. We went to the pizza place and I ate salad from and salad bar while the kids ordered pizza. It took a long time for the pizza to arrive and by the time we left, I was late getting Angels friends home in time to get to bed for school tomorrow.
On the drive back to Council, I put on a Charlotte’s Web audiobook for the kids to listen to. I dropped Angels friends off and talked with their mom for a while. Then we went home and went straight to bed. I put on a sleep meditation and wrote my blog notes. We went to sleep at around 10 PM.
Monday September 22, 2025
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for cats.
- Thank you for adventures.
- Thank you for deep sleep.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
Dear Diary,
I awoke at 6 AM. I had slept through the night and I felt well rested. I got up and made tea and a smoothie and breakfast and lunch for Angel. Angel woke up and ate while I packed her lunch to go. I walked to M&W, refreshed my gratitude sign and got a few groceries. Then we waited for my friend to come over. When she arrived, we left to go on an adventure up to Kinney Point and Peacock mine.
On the drive, we had great conversations. One of our conversations was about being present with our feelings and basking in them, even the difficult feelings like anger and depression. Depression is heavy and cloudy and dark and when I choose to enjoy feeling heavy and cloudy and dark, the depression loses its power to cause suffering because I am enjoying it. I decided a couple of years ago, that I am going to enjoy this incredible life I have been gifted and I’m going to enjoy all it has to offer including “difficult” feelings such as depression, anger and grief. This is what I choose.
We arrived at Kinney Point. The road was a little rough getting there but not that bad. The view from up there was incredible, you could see layers and layers of Hells Canyon backed by layers and layers of mountains. Pictures can’t show the depth of the terrain. It was glorious. We walked around a while and soaked in the scenery.
Next, we decided to go to find the ghost town of Helena before finding Peacock mine because Angel wanted to go there. Somehow we got lost and were on a road heading north. We just went with the flow and continued on to see where the road ended up. It was great that we had gotten lost because we ended up at a place called Sheep Rock and it was really neat.
There was a hiking trail that went a half mile up and around Sheep Rock. There were signs along the trail that told about the history in the area, the views and the names of plants. It was a fun hike and we saw more amazing views of Hells Canyon. What a sight! I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I had no idea there were so many spectacular places in this part of the mountains and the best part is that they are not tourist attractions full of people. We saw one other sight seer the whole day.
When we left Sheep Rock, we gave up on finding Helena and went in search of Peacock mine. When we came to a sign that said Horse Mountain lookout 1 mile. We turned off to go see what the views were like from up there. Angel and I climbed the tower and met the lookout person. He was a quirky little man who was really friendly. He said that this was his 4th year at this tower but he’s spent many years in different towers working for the forest service. I took a video of the views while up on the tower. I’ve been to the Grand Canyon and the views of Hells Canyon are just as breathtaking if not more so.
We never did make it to Peacock mine. We missed the turn off and it was getting later in the day, so we continued on down the mountain to Council. It had been a wonderful day and I really like my new friend. We have a lot in common and think similarly. All day we had been taking turns saying what the other was thinking.
When we got to Council, my friend went home and I fed Angel dinner. Then I walked over to the bank and cleaned it. My new friend brought over one of her plants that I am taking care of for her through the winter. Then Angel and I got ready for bed. I read a few chapters from a Pony Pal book. I put on a sleep meditation and we went to sleep early at around 8:30 pm.
Tuesday September 23, 2025
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for my life.
- Thank you for breath.
- Thank you for faith.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
Dear Diary,
I awoke at 1 AM. I wrote my blog and went back to sleep at 4 AM. I woke again at 7:30 AM. I made myself tea and Angel breakfast. Angel read for a half hour, then I went over to my friend TJ’s. I watered plants, checked on the chickens and cleaned her house.
I went to my next opportunity and it was to wash outside windows. It was a perfect morning for being outside washing windows and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I helped my client move some furniture and cleaned the inside of the windows. Angel did her schoolwork while I cleaned.
My next opportunity was out in Goodrich helping Mr. and Mrs. H. I watered the plants and cleaned downstairs. Mr. H was sitting outside while I watered plants and I told him about going to Sheep Rock, Kinney Point and Horse Mountain Lookout tower yesterday. He reminisced about how him and Mrs. H used to go there every year and have a picnic. I asked him if he would like me to take them there when I go again on Monday. He said that he would and to ask Mrs. H. I found her and asked and it was decided that they would go. They were excited to get the opportunity to go to there again. Mrs. H and I went upstairs and worked on the storage closet. We got a lot done and we’re getting ready to finish up when I suddenly felt dizzy and light headed. I sat down and felt like I was going to throw up. After a few minutes the dizziness eased up but I still felt queasy. Mrs. H sent me home and when I arrived I laid down and rested for a while.
I felt better after resting and I fed Angel dinner. Then I picked up a couple of Angels friends and took them to Girls Club.
Girls Club went good and when it was over we went home and got rest for bed. I read a chapter out loud from a Pony Pals book. Then we played a few games of Mancala. I put on a sleep meditation and we went to sleep at 10 PM.
Wednesday September 24, 2025
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for dogs.
- Thank you for the color blue.
- Thank you for grass.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
Dear Diary,
I awoke at 5 AM. I wrote some of my blog and slept more from 6:30 AM to 7:00 AM. I walked to M&W, refreshed my gratitude sign and got a few groceries. When I got home, I went to a cleaning opportunity. Angel did her schoolwork at the table and the dogs ran around playing with my clients dog Mogi. My client wanted me to cut his hair. I accidentally cut a spot too short so then I had to cut it all that short. I tried to even it all out and anyway…. I’m glad my client is an easy going guy that laughs a lot. He didn’t care and was glad to have his hair cut, even if it was cut really short. I had warned him that I was a self taught amateur at hair cutting. The last time I cut his hair it turned it real nice. Some you win, some you cut too short.
When I finished cleaning, we went to the Mennonite store and got some groceries. Then we went home, I walked to the thrift store and found some much needed tennis shoes. When I got home I did a phone call with a Life Coaching client. I think it’s great that I haven’t advertised to do Life Coaching for years but I still have clients tricking in which I love because I love being a Life Coach for people.
After the coaching session, I called my phone company about getting another phone. My phone doesn’t have enough space anymore and even though I deleted a bunch of pictures and off loaded all the apps, there is still not enough space to do upgrades. The phone call didn’t get me a new phone. I was hoping I could get a discount but it seems like I can only get a small discount and iPhones cost a lot.
I got off the phone and made a quiche for a meal train I signed up for. While it was cooking, I fed Angel dinner and cleaned house. When the quiche was done, I delivered it to the family I made it for. Then I cleaned the bank and went to my older sisters for a few minutes to get my mail.
Back at home, Angel and I got ready for bed. I read two chapters from a Pony Pal book. Then I wrote my blog and put on a sleep meditation. We went to sleep at around 10 PM.
Thursday September 25, 2025
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for encouragement.
- Thank you for the color green.
- Thank you for cows.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
Dear Diary,
I awoke at 5 AM. I got up and made tea and a smoothie. Then I made Angels breakfast and woke her up. I made my bed while she ate and we left to go to McCall. My first cleaning opportunity was the Airbnb. It is a big house that is 3 stories with 4 bedrooms and 3.5 bathrooms. I walked up and down the stairs over and over and over, doing laundry and making beds.
I took a break from the Airbnb and cleaned another big 2 story house before coming back and finishing the last of the laundry at the Airbnb. By the time I was done, I was worn out. Angel and I stopped at Zims on the way home. I stretched and floated on my back fully relaxing my body. It felt so good after all the exercise I’d done. Some people pay to go to gym and workout. I get paid to workout while cleaning.
After Zims, we stopped in New Meadows to get ice cream. The owner of the restaurant was outside watering and I talked to her while the dogs ran around and Angel ate. She comes to Zims often and I enjoy talking with her.
We made it home right before the thrift store closed. I hurried over there and bought a couple of nice vacuums. I’m going to take one to the bank to use because the vacuum there is not very good. Next, Angel and I rode the 4-wheeler over to my friend TJ’s. I cleaned out the little chicken coop, watered the potted plants and pulled some weeds.
Angel went to evening jujitsu and I cleaned the Assembly of God church. When we got home, we got ready for bed. I read a couple of chapter from the Point Pal book and we went to sleep at 10 PM listening to a sleep meditation.
Friday September 26, 2025
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for cleaning opportunities.
- Thank you for challenges.
- Thank you for my needs being met in abundance.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
Dear Diary,
I awoke at 2:30 AM and goofed around on my phone. I was in consumer mode rather than creative mode. They’re both great but I prefer to be in creative mode rather than passively watching “got talent” videos while scrolling on Facebook. I feel yucky and worn down when I’m scrolling or passively watching mindless nonsense. I feel alive and vibrant when I’m creating.
All that scrolling messed up my energy and I wasn’t able to go back to sleep so I laid relaxing listening to a guided meditation. At 7 AM, I got up and made tea and a smoothie. When Angels breakfast was almost ready, I woke her up and she ate right away. I made my bed and walked to M&W to refresh my gratitude sign. We left right to time to give someone a ride to Cambridge. The day was starting out perfectly. I pull up to my clients house and he wasn’t ready to go. He wasn’t even close to being ready to go. I immediately felt myself get triggered. I had a full day with clients scheduled back to back. Things needed to run on time or I wasn’t going to be ok….or was I going to be ok? Thoughts began running through my mind such as: “I am doing this guy a favor and he doesn’t have the courtesy to be ready on time? I had messaged him that I was going to be here right at 8:30 AM. Obviously he thinks I am living a leisurely life with all the time in the world…..blah blah blah”. Ridiculous thoughts! So funny!
I sat with my trigger and prayed for clarity. Suddenly I realized that I had the illusion that this person was harming my ability to be in acceptance of what is because “what is” did not fit what I had expected. Ah ha! Expectation! That’s why I was triggered. I had an expectation that didn’t happen and I wasn’t ok with a different experience. Can I be ok with a different experience? I sure can be…will be…I am. I choose yes to being ok with the experience I am having. I chose yes to being ok with feeling tired. I chose yes to enjoying the experience of “being late”.
We started down the driveway after the guy got settled into the truck. He asked me to stop at his shop at the end of the driveway so that he could grab a few things. When he got back into the truck, he remembered something he had forgot in his house. We drove back up to his house and he got what he needed.
We headed to Cambridge and were just getting onto the highway when the guy got a phone call from a friend that he was meeting in Cambridge. His friend was wondering where the guy was at because he was supposed to be there by now. I laughed to myself, I guess I hadn’t been the only one impatiently waiting on the guy. I could see that there was a pattern of energy going on.
I dropped the guy off in Cambridge and while I was there I dropped off a really heavy package at my younger sisters house that I’d been meaning to bring her. When we got back to Council, Angel had just enough time to make it to jujitsu and I made it to a cleaning opportunity right on time. I guess I was back to being on time (whatever “on time” is…can we really be “on time”…how can we be on something that is not solid or …. what is the heck is time….is it even real?).
Anyway, my cleaning client wanted me to help her in her yard instead. Yay! I was happy to be outside on a beautiful fall day with perfect weather. What a blessing! First thing my client had me dig holes every 2 feet along the side of her house. I started digging and it was tougher than I expected because there were a lot of rocks and roots. I got about 8 holes dug and I was feeling worn out. My client brought over bags of potting soil and mulch with the tractor and had her grandson unload them. I then emptied them out and spread the soil and mulch along the side of the house and keep the holes open. Next my client and I moved concrete blocks around to build an edge for a new garden bed she is putting in. When we finished that, I cleaned the kitchen and part of the bathroom. All of that took me 2.5 hours and I was beat by the time I finished.
I got Angel and we went to New Meadows to clean a house. It was a regular cleaning and I was grateful to not be doing strenuous labor. It was Lucky’s house, a dog I pet sit on a regular basis. Their grand-dog Sydney was their too. All the dogs had fun playing. Tiny Boy fit right in and they ran all around together in the backyard. Angel did her schoolwork while I cleaned. Then she talked on her phone to my grandson Finn that lives in Texas. I still haven’t figured out when I’m going to go visit Texas. Next month I’ll have been back on Idaho for a year and I don’t want to go anywhere. Plus I clean the bank 3 days a week and have Airbnb’s that I clean in McCall and I don’t have anyone to cover those for me if I left.
When I finished cleaning, I drove out to Goodrich to help Mr. and Mrs. H. I arrived and Mr. H wanted me to help him in the garage. We organized some things and I followed him around the property with the wheelbarrow loaded with stuff to drop off in different sheds while he drove his 4-wheeler. The wheel barrow was heavy and we walked a long ways. Then Mr. H wanted me to blow out the garage with the leaf blower but he couldn’t find it, so instead he had me use a little shop vac. It was hard work bending down holding the shop vac hose close to ground while walked back and forth, back and forth and back and forth across the garage blowing the dirt out. It took a while and I got a cramp in my back but I managed to get it done.
When I got back to Council, I went to my pet sitting opportunity. I took the dogs on a walk and fed them and the cat. Then Angel went to my older sisters to stay the night and I cleaned the bank. I was really tired when I finished. I went home and took a long hot shower. I put on clean sheets and collapsed into bed. I wrote my blog notes and fell asleep at 10 PM listening to a sleep meditation.
Saturday September 27, 2025
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for insights.
- Thank you for strength.
- Thank you for laughter.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
Dear Diary,
I awoke at 3:38 AM. I attempted to go back to sleep right away but sleep wouldn’t come, so I laid in bed relaxing while listening to a guided meditation. At 4:45 AM. I got up and made tea and a smoothie. Then I drove to a pet sitting opportunity. I fed the dogs and cat and took the dogs on a walk. When I got home, I got ready to go on a hike at Tamarack ski resort called “Top of Tamarack”. Here’s information about it: https://gr8ter.org/what-we-do/top-of-tamarack/. My friend JJ invited me to go with her and I said yes.
My friend was late in picking me up and I started to stress about being late. Yesterday morning I had stressed about the same thing. There’s something about running late that I’m letting trigger me. I immediately noticed the trigger and faced it full on. “What’s up trigger, why is being late for a volunteer hike an issue?”, I had a quick conversation with myself about importance and what truly matters. Being late for a hike is not high on importance and not worth tensing over in anyway. I felt my body relax and was filled with joy thinking about how fun it is to go with the flow. Suddenly I was excited for the adventures of the day to unfold.
JJ picked me up and was stressed because she was running late. I told her that we were right on time. We drove over to Donnelly and arrived at the Tamarack resort with plenty of time to spare because the hike ended up starting late, which made us perfectly on time. We had even stopped on the drive there to let the dogs run a few minutes. I knew we would be right on time.
We stayed in the back behind all of the other people as we headed up the mountain because my friend was recovering from knee surgery and Little Bit and Tiny Boy were almost getting stepped on. They are both used to being off leash and were pulling on their leashes while trying to avoid people’s hiking poles and feet. When everyone had passed by us things mellowed out and hike was much more peaceful.
We took our time and stopped often so JJ could rest. Eventually I let the dogs off their leash and kept an eye on them to make sure they stayed close. We hiked uphill 2.5 miles to the “memorial mile” where people have names of family and friends that committed suicide. JJ had her sisters name there and we stopped so JJ could put a flower on her stand.
We decided to rest a few minutes at the place where we decided to turn around. It was by a creek and was very peaceful. Suddenly a guy came around the corner on a mountain bike going fast. The dogs took off running after him barking frantically. I hadn’t been expecting that because the dogs had been doing fine with the occasional people walking or running by. The cyclist had to slow down to go around the next corner and the dogs got in front of him. He slammed on his brakes and jumped off his bicycle. I was yelling and yelling for the dogs but they were in a frenzy. The guy put his bicycle in-between him and the dogs and they finally came running back to me. We apologized to the guy and he was mad. He asked why the dogs were off leash if they were going to do that. I said that they had never done that before and he rode off. The dogs got a lecture and Tiny Boy got his leash put back on since he was the instigator in the bicycle chase.
The walk down the mountain was uneventful. We had great conversations about all kinds of things but mostly about living consciously in different aspects of life. When we got back to the event headquarters, both dogs got their leash back on and we sat to the side and did some people watching. We were definitely not in Council anymore, there were “plastic” people everywhere, with their perfect clothes and their perfect hair and makeup. I wondered what their lives were truly like underneath the façade of money and perfection.
We left the event before it was completely over but we were completely over “it” by then 😂. We were tired and hungry. We stopped at a Chinese restaurant in Donnelly where I had steamed rice with steamed vegetables. Then we drove to Zim’s hot springs.
The hot springs felt so good. My body was sore and tired. Thursday I had cleaned a 3 story house and a 2 story house where I had to run up and down the stairs several times to change the sheets and wash them. Friday I had a 13 hour work day on 5 hours of sleep, I spent the day doing heavy lifting and hard physical labor. Then today, on 6 hours of sleep, I hiked 5 miles up a mountain and back. My body thanked me for coming to the hot springs as I stretched and fully relaxed in the warm mineral water. I thanked my body back for being strong and resilient. JJ had never been to Zim’s before and she loved it. We stayed for an hour or so before heading home.
JJ dropped me and the dogs off at our apartment. I drove over to my pet sitting opportunity and walked the dogs. I fed them and the cat and came home. I was so tired that I could barely function. I called my older sister and told her that I was home. She said that she would send Angel over. I thanked her for watching Angel and she said “sure”.
Angel came home and wanted to stay the night at her friends. I messaged her friends mom and it was approved. Angel went to her friends and I went straight to bed. I put on a sleep meditation and went to sleep right away at 7:30 PM.
Sunday September 28, 2025
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for gratitude.
- Thank you for seasons.
- Thank you for life.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
Dear Diary,
I awoke at 1:30 AM. I wrote my blog and slept more from 4 AM to 7 AM. I really enjoy my middle of the night awake time. I actually look forward to it. Outside energy is quiet in the middle of the night. I let the dogs out and spend time petting them. Sweetie Alabama runs around purring and gets petted too. I reflect on any triggers I might have had during the previous day and I pray for guidance and clarity on healing the cause of the triggers. The Holy Spirit guides me and I receive clarity on my intentions. I remember to look to my heart and practice unconditional love. I forgive all the things I had perceived as done wrong to me and forgive any wrongs I have perceived as having done to others. Letting go of dark energy (triggers) by shining light on them and seeing that they are illusions. I write my blog and the Holy Spirit comes over me. I receive so much clarity while writing and the feeling that comes over me as each illusion is exposed is euphoric. I am so grateful to wake up in the middle of the night. It’s such a blessing to me.
In the morning when I got up, I made tea and started laundry at the laundry mat. I went to my pet sitting opportunity, took the dogs on a walk and fed them and the cat. I went back to the laundry mat and switched laundry. I hung out and talked with an older man who was also there doing his laundry.
When my clothes were dry, I picked up Angel from her friends. We went home and got ready for church. We rode the 4-wheeler to the Assembly of God Church because they are having practice for a children’s Christmas play during children’s church and Angel wants to be in the play and I’m going to be in it also.
I didn’t know any of the songs they sang, except for the first one and the music was way too loud. I was grateful when it was time for play practice during children’s church. We read through the play and that was a lot of fun.
After church, we went to McCall, and I cleaned the Airbnb. It was dirtier than usual and took me all day to clean. When I finished, I messaged the owner that it was done and sent her a Venmo request for payment. She responded to my text, but never sent payment. It made me a little nervous that she hadn’t paid me right away after working so hard all day. The last time I cleaned I had to remind her a couple of times but I did get paid. I don’t like having to remind people to pay me.
When we got home from McCall, I went to my Pet Sitting opportunity. I took the dogs on a walk and fed them in the cat. Then we went home and got ready for bed. I wrote my blog notes and we fell asleep at around 10 PM listening to a sleep meditation.