Friday April 18, 2025
Dear Diary,
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for sunshine.
- Thank you for good sleep.
- Thank you for health.
- Thank you for fresh fruits and vegetables.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
I awoke at 2 AM and wrote a little of my blog. Then I slept more from 4 AM to 7 AM. I finished writing my blog and posted it. Angel woke to and was hungry. I made her breakfast and took a long hot shower. When I got out, I made tea and we played What’s the Point.
We got ready to go and went out to the country to meet with a man about farm sitting for him. We talked to the man and he showed us around. He agreed to hire me and I put him on the schedule. My overnight pet sitting is filling up fast for next month and I’m really grateful for that.
When we got back to town, I stopped at the Mennonite store to get honey and then the thrift store to see what they had.
After that, we went to do a deep cleaning opportunity. I thoroughly cleaned while Angel did her schoolwork. It took me 4 hours and the house looked amazing when I was finished. When I was almost done cleaning, my right leg started hurting right where it connects at the groin. I couldn’t figure out what caused it but it hurt so bad that I could barely walk. I figured it was a cramp of some sort and would pass.
My client had given me an aloe vera plant and I stopped at the thrift store on the way home to see if I could find a nice pot to put it in. I got out of the truck and I could still barely walk. I gimped into the thrift store and gimped around looking for a planter when I saw a really cute doll house. Now that we are in the apartment, Angel has room for a doll house. I didn’t find a pot for the aloe plant but I did buy the doll house. I was barely able to get it out to the truck, the pain in my leg was getting worse and it was getting harder and harder to walk.
I drove a block to our apartment and my neighbor was outside. She helped Angel carry the doll house upstairs and I gimped my way up. I thanked my neighbor and she suggested I take an ibuprofen or Tylenol for my leg. I told her that I don’t take pain pills because it prevents my body from telling me what I need to know. (I don’t play the pharmaceutical game anymore, once you know that Santa Claus isn’t real, you can’t go back to believing in him.) I told her I would be alright and she headed home. I laid down on the daybed and did a full body relaxation session while Angel played with her new doll house. After fully relaxing my body, I got up to see if my leg still hurt. It did. I did some stretching but that didn’t help either. I laid back down and prayed for the clarity about my leg. Suddenly I realized that nothing was wrong with me and that I was mentally creating the pain in my leg. I decided to walk around, as I would, if my leg wasn’t hurting. I got up again and walked around the apartment. My leg was still hurting and I reminded the pain that it was an illusion, within 10 minutes the pain was gone. The power of the mind is incredible.
Now that I was able to walk again. I walked to the bank and cleaned it. Then I went back home and Angel and I got dressed in black for Good Friday service at church. The service was great and pastor Amy had me do some reading during the service as well as extinguish candles.
When I left the Nazarene church, I immediately walked over to the Assembly of God church and cleaned it while still wearing my nice dress and shoes. Aaron called and we had a good talk while I finished cleaning and walked home. I really enjoy our conversations.
At home, Angel and I got ready for bed. I read her a chapter from William H. McGuffey, Boy Reading Genius and she read one of her children’s books to me. We went to bed and I saw a memory on my phone with a picture of Christopher and me when we were together in Texas. I could see the love in his eyes when he looked at me. I felt sad that things hadn’t worked out between us. I have been grieving my marriage and life in Texas lately and it’s a good thing. Grief is a good thing.
I wrote my blog notes, put on a sleep meditation and went to sleep at 11 PM.
Saturday April 19, 2025
Morning prayer:
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for sleepy mornings.
- Thank you for extra rest.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
Dear Diary,
I awoke at 7 AM. I started to write my blog. Then I decided to do a full body relaxation session instead. I laid on the bed and relaxed my body from head to foot. I must had drifted to sleep because I awoke again at 8:30 AM. Angel came in the room and crawled in bed with me. We cuddled up in my super warm bed. Warm from the sun shining on the blankets. I love sunshine so much.
Angel was hungry, so I got up and made her breakfast. I made myself tea and a smoothie. I pulled frozen soup out of the freezer and warmed it up to take to Souper Saturday at the Nazarene church. When the soup was warm, I carried it over to the church. Then Angel and I walked to the Easter egg hunt being put on by the Chamber of Commerce.
The Easter egg hunt was great fun. There were a lot of kids there and Angel collected a whole bunch of eggs. When it was over, we went to the Nazarene church to have soup and salad. I chatted with people. My friend Chad was there and he told me that Klienschmidt grade was completely clear of snow. Yay! I will have to check it out. Chad also told me that he is going morel mushroom hunting next week and he will let me know where they are when he finds them. Yay! It’s so awesome being back in Idaho. Idaho is like a big playground, there’s so much public land to play on.
When we left the church, I got laundry from our place and took it over to my older sisters to wash it. While waiting for my laundry, I helped my sister move things around upstairs and we put the rest of my stuff that is still there in a pile for me to take home. I switched laundry and then we walked over to my friend Camille’s so that Angel could color eggs with Camille’s daughter and niece. The girls had fun coloring eggs. Then I helped Camille juice a bunch of carrots and ginger.
We walked back to my sisters to switch laundry. Then I bicycled to a pet sitting opportunity. I fed the dogs and played frisbee with them. They are really smart dogs. They are both blue heelers and they know exactly what you are saying to them. They know which frisbee is theirs too and they won’t fetch the frisbee that isn’t theirs.
After pet sitting, I went to my sisters to switch laundry again. I played a game with her until the last of my laundry was done. Angel stayed the night at my sisters and I walked home with our clean laundry. I could really use a wagon to haul my laundry with, it gets heavy carrying the hamper.
I put the laundry away and talked to Aaron on the phone. We had a great conversation about illusions and not being able to “fix” people, we can only “fix” ourselves. When I got off the phone, I took a long hot shower and went to bed. I wrote my blog notes and put on a sleep meditation. I drifted to sleep at around 10 PM.
Thank you for reading my blog and being a part of my life. I appreciate you.
Love, Victoria
P. S. This blog post was inspired by the Holy Spirit.
P. S. S. This was Friday and Saturday. A lot has happened since then. Stay tuned.