Sunday March 23, 2025
Dear Diary,
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for inspiring dreams.
- Thank you for days off.
- Thank you for bicycles.
- Thank you for rain.
- Thank you for love.
I love you!
I awoke at 6:30 AM. I had slept through the night. I had an inspirational dream about air being the Holy Spirit and realizing that I was always completely surrounded by love, breathing it in and out. The breath of life.
I wrote my blog and posted it. Then I went to Lila’s, fed her and let her out. When I got home, I started Angels taters cooking and we played What’s the Point while waiting for her food to cook. Angel attempted to make a bargain with me saying that if she wins 2 games in a row of What’s the Point, she gets 10 minutes on her Nintendo. I told her that she couldn’t earn Nintendo time by winning a card game. Angel totally disregarded what I told her by suggesting, if she wins 3 games in a row of What’s the Point then she gets 10 minutes of Nintendo time. Hmmm, 3 games in a row, ok, I agreed. 🤔That girls has some bargaining skills.
Of course she won 3 games in a row, even though I did my best to not let her. Triumphantly she cheered. I told her she had to wait to use her 10 minutes until after church because it was time to go.
We let Lila out on the way to church. We went to the Nazarene church again. The singing was fantastic. I love singing so much. What I got from the sermon was, whenever I am wanting others to be there for me, focus on being there for others. Giving is receiving.
After church, we went to Lila’s and I let her out. Then we went to my older sisters and got our bicycles. Angel wanted to ride around town and asked me to join her. I hadn’t ridden in a long time and I was happy to get on my bicycle again. It was cold and windy but we had fun riding around. We rode by my friend Camille’s house and Angel wanted to stop in to see if Camille’s daughter could play. I wasn’t sure if they were busy but I told Angel we could stop and see.
Camille’s mother-in-law was visiting but she said the girls could play together for a little while. The girls played upstairs while Camille and I hung out in the kitchen and talked. I was introduced to her mother-in-law and we chatted briefly before she went into the other room. We stayed for about 45 minutes then we bicycled back to my sisters. It was even colder than it had been earlier and it was a cold ride, good thing we didn’t have to ride very far.
We hearted (headed) home and on the way I let Lila out. I started laundry washing up the hill and played What’s the Point with Angel. Of course she won 3 games in a row. I cleaned out the fridge then I sat on the couch and wrote an article for the newspaper about the Mennonite choir concert I went to on Wednesday night. I had fun writing the article and sent it in when I was finished.
I had been feeling sad throughout the day. I wasn’t sure why but I allowed the feeling to be felt. I decided to go on a walk up the road and asked Angel if she wanted to come. She was watching a movie on her DVD player and wanted to stay and continue watching. I told her I would be walking up the private road if she needed me. I put on a jacket and walked up to a great lookout point. The view was spectacular. I allowed the sadness I was feeling to envelope me as I basked in the beautiful sight. I found that if I allow my feelings to flow and be felt fully. Then they actually feel good. Resisting the “unwanted” feelings is what makes them painful. The sadness I was feeling felt so good, it was deep and rich. I felt it in my heart radiating outward. I told my sadness that it was fully loved and I wallowed in the sad feeling. I felt alive and raw and real. It was glorious.
I walked back down the road and took pictures of plants. My shoes got all muddy and I appreciated how getting mired down in the mud was natures representation of the condition of my heart. I laughed about the mud and thanked the earth for being in tune with my energy and feeling sad with me.
When I got back from my walk, I switched the laundry and drove to Lila’s to feed her and let her out. I came home and fed Angel dinner. We played a few more games of What’s the Point. I won this time. I folded laundry and put it away. Then I let Lila out one more time before going to bed. I put on a sleep meditation and wrote out my blog notes. I went to sleep at around 10:30 PM.
Thank you for reading my blog and being a part of my life. I appreciate you.
Love, Victoria
P. S. This blog post was inspired by the Holy Spirit.
P. S. S. This was Sunday. A lot has happened since then. Stay tuned.