Sunday January 12, 2025
Dear Diary,
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for church.
- Thank you for my mom.
- Thank you for clarity.
- Thank you for rv’s.
- Thank you for frustration.
I love you!
I awoke at 3 am. I played wordle and connections, wrote my blog and looked at rv’s online. At 6 am I slept again and awoke again at 8 am. I looked at rv’s online for a half hour. I’m feeling done with looking at rv’s but excited about it at the same time.
Angel was awake playing in her room. She asked if she could play Minercraft and I said she could until it was time for church. She wanted 2 grilled cheese sandwiches for breakfast and I made them for her while I made my tea. My mom called and I told her about the cute little camper that I really liked. She encouraged me to get it. I told her that I prayed about it and I will get full clarity if it’s the right one. I looked at more RV‘s online and messaged a few people about looking at their RV’s later today.
Angel and I walked to church. It was a beautiful walk the 3 blocks there. It had lightly snowed overnight and everything was covered in white. At church I greeted people. Sunday school was about types of praise and worship and church service was about living our purpose. After church, Angel and I stopped by a ladies house to meet her dogs. I will be doing a drop in pet sitting opportunity for her on Friday. I met her dogs.. Bandit, Libby and Bear and they immediately liked me.
Next, Angel and I walked to one of her new friends houses so that they could play together for a couple of hours. On the walk I received a few texts back about looking at RV’s and scheduled times later in the day to look at them. I called my sister to see if Angel could stay with her while I looked at campers down in the valley. She said she couldn’t watch Angel and told me that Bits was crying and I needed to come get him. I didn’t understand why Bits was crying because he likes staying with my sister.
I walked Angel to her friends house and then walked home to get Bits and my truck. On the walk home I felt really sad. I knew I was feeling unhealed sorrow from my past that had surfaced and I was grateful because when I see it, I can heal it. I allowed myself to feel the sadness fully, without any resistance. I cried, allowing the sorrow flow freely, noticing the thoughts that were feeding the sadness. I realized that the sorrow I was feeling was the sorrow of all who had ever felt unloved and rejected and I was honored. I felt the rich deep feeling of sadness and I could feel the joy in sorrow. I was thankful for the gift of sadness and after a while the sorrow had run its course and peace of mind returned.
When I arrived home, my sister was in her room with the door shut and that’s why Bits had been crying. He likes to sit next to my sister and be with her. He was experiencing sadness too from being shut out. I gave him lots of love and he was happy again. I made a smoothie for myself and made grilled cheese sandwiches for Angel to eat. Then I drove with Bits to pick up Angel.
We listened to Nancy Drew on the drive down the mountain. We looked at RV’s in Payette, Ontario, New Plymouth and Weiser. The only one I liked was a 5th wheel in New Plymouth but it was a little more than I wanted to spend. I have $10,000 saved in an investment account at Edward Jones and I plan on spending less than half of that. Once I get an RV I will put any extra money I make back into the account to build it up again and have it accrue interest.
By the time we got back home to my sisters, it was after 7 pm. Angel played Minecraft for an hour and I called up a new client that I will be organizing for tomorrow to make sure I knew what he wanted help with and how to get to his place. Then I talked to my friend Carolena on the phone. She was really encouraging about my future and it was so wonderful to talk to her. I have such amazing friends. When I got off the phone I decided to get the little RV camper I had looked at yesterday. I’d had such a good feeling about it and I decided to follow that feeling. I messaged the lady that owns it and told her and we made plans for me to pick it up.
Angel turned off Minecraft and we brushed our teeth and went to bed. I put on a sleep meditation and we fell asleep right away at around 10:30 pm.
Thank you for reading my blog and being a part of my life. I appreciate you.
Love, Victoria
P.S. this blog post is inspired by the Holy Spirit.