Tuesday July 16, 2024
Dear Diary,
Woke up at 3:30 AM. I laid in the hammock meditating and breathing. At 4:30 AM I got up to use the bathroom. I heard the front door close and went into the living room. Peggy was standing there looking exhausted. I asked her if she was just getting home. She said yes and that her luggage was still outside. I brought it in for her and asked if she needed anything else. She said that she was going straight to bed. I told her that was good.
I went out and got in my hammock. I fell asleep at 5 AM. At 6:30 AM, I woke up again. I woke Angel up and packed the hammock and bedding in the truck. Angel was still sleepy and dozed off on the drive. I went to my farm-sitting opportunity and took care of the animals while Angel and Bits stayed in the truck. Then I searched for Abby some more. I saw one of the dogs named Patches go into the woods. I followed to see if she would take me to where Abby was. Once I reached the woods, I couldn’t see Patches. I followed an animal trail for a while. Then I heard something behind me. It was another dog named Snowflake. I asked her to show me where Abby was. She took off on a trail and I followed him. She was traveling fast. I kept getting caught up in greenbrier or yaupon and telling Snowflake to slow down.
We went quite a ways through the woods and finally came out in a small meadow. I wasn’t sure where I was. Snowflake ran under a fence and across the meadow to another set of woods. Instead of going in them, she walked along the edge of them. I followed her on my side of the meadow. We reached a clearing where it opened up into another meadow. Snowflake ran over to me and headed west. I looked on my phone to see where I was. I had no idea how far we had gone, after all, there was 360 acres to wander around in. I saw that Snowflake was going the direction of the house. I realized she hadn’t been showing me where Abby was, she was just happy to have a human following her around.
It was a long walk to the house. I stopped at a creek along the way to wash off my cuts and scrapes from running through the thick woods. When I got to the house, Angel was still playing on her phone, sitting in the truck with Bits. I sent the owner a message saying I searched for Abby again this morning for a couple of hours. Snowflake convinced me that she was going to take me to her and took me on a crazy adventure through the woods, but there was no sign of Abby 😔. The owners response was beautiful: Thank you for searching. She knows where home is and maybe something happened to her. I love that snow took you all around. She definitely has good intentions. I will not tell the kids anything and we will enjoy our week. She will either turn up or honestly, it’s possible (though it would
Be unexpected) that she went off in to the woods to die or something. She is an amazing 14 year old dog. If she did die or doesn’t come home, she lived a beautiful life and was so well loved. We will obviously be very sad, but also thrilled that she maintained her life as a good dog until the end. I started crying, I felt so sad about Abby being gone and that message gave me some comfort.
I drove home and greeted Christopher. I made smoothies for myself and Angel. Then we went to Tracey’s. Tracey and I sat outside and talked while Angel played on her phone. I was feeling tired, so I got the hammock frame out from the back of the truck and set up the hammock. I took a 45 minute nap while Angel and Tracey went swimming in the pond. When I woke up, I drove to town to run errands and clean a house. Angel and Bits stayed with Tracey. I deposited money in the bank and went to Edward Jones to finish getting my money market account set up, then I transferred all of my savings over.
I drove to my friend Mona’s to clean house for her. She is the producer for the musical I am in and we talked about the play while I cleaned. When I finished, I got Bits and Angel from Tracey’s and drove home. Christopher was sitting in the front yard drinking beer. He had been digging holes earlier that day to put in posts for the front deck that he was starting to build. It was good to see him motivated to work on finishing the house.
I knew I had to talk to him about ending our relationship. I didn’t want to drag things out any longer. I gently told him that I wanted to end our relationship. I told him that we both had given a good effort towards making things work and it was time to end it. He said that he knows that and was in agreement. Both of our eyes teared up. I told him, “I don’t stop loving people. I will always love him and he is welcome to continue to be a part of Angels life”. He said ok. I gave him a hug and went in the house to get ready for play practice.
Angel went with me to play practice and it went really good. When it was over, I picked up Tracey and we did my farm-sitting opportunity together. When we got there one of the boy goats was dead. The owner had told me that some of the goats were sick and might die. She had given them medicine but wasn’t sure if it would work. She said, if they died to put their bodies in the woods to decompose. I was hoping that none of the goats would die on my watch but it happened. Tracey dragged it out to the woods for me. I did deep breathing and watched the sky. When he came out of the woods, we stood and watched the sky together for a few minutes. Then we finished taking care of the animals.
I dropped Tracey off and drove home. Christopher was already in bed. Angel and I went to bed right away in the banana hut. I put on a unicorn meditation and we went to sleep at around 11 pm.
Thank you for reading my blog and being a part of my life. I appreciate you.
Love, Victoria
P. S. This blog post was inspired by the Holy Spirit.