Clarity: Today’s Letter to Christopher

Dear Christopher, December 8, 2019 It was magical last night coming home on the 4 wheeler, with the moon so bright and the stars, fresh air and trees. I felt…

A Day Off: Letter to Christopher

Dear Christopher, December 7, 2019 I am feeling so much better today. I’m very very grateful for your support in the decisions I make for what I need to do…

Depression: A Letter to Christopher

Dear Christopher, December 6, 2019. I didn’t expect to wake up with debilitating depression yesterday morning. It seems to be lifting today. I’m glad that it is ending. It was…

A Letter to Christopher

Dear Christopher, December 4, 2019 Happy 3 months! We made it through 3 months. It’s been a crazy 3 months. We got to know each other really fast and I’m…

A Letter To Christopher

Almost everyday I write a letter to Christopher. Here is this mornings. Dear Christopher, December 3, 2019 I was floating on my back in the hot tub this morning. The…

Resisting Hopelessness

Dear Diary and Friends, The trees are my constant reminder to be in a place of non resistance. The trees laugh and dance as they bend and sway with the…

The Pain is All in My Head

Dear Diary and Friends, I came home from work Tuesday night feeling intense pain in my stomach. It had been a long day, I was glad to be home and…

A Letter to Emil

Dear Emil, Thank you for your kindness. I have done an incredible amount of healing since I saw you last. I’m wondering if you have been continuing to do light…

Blissed Out

Dear Diary and Friends, Basking in the sun on the floor I’m drifting in and out of consciousness, sort of in a trance. My hands start to move across my…