Monday, December 2, 2024
Dear Diary,
Good morning God,
- Thank you for this day.
- Thank you for my mom.
- Thank you for laughter.
- Thank you for fun holidays.
- Thank you for beautiful scenery.
- Thank you for nature.
- Thank you for sagebrush.
I love you!
I woke up at 2:30 am from Angel hitting me in the face. She was sleeping restlessly and every time I started to fall asleep again she would elbow me or kick me. One time she lifted up her head and cracked it against mine. Somehow that didn’t wake her up but needless to say, I didn’t get much sleep. At 6:30 am, I officially got up. My mom was up reading her Bible in the living room. I told her good morning and let Bits out. Angel got up and my mom made her some oatmeal for breakfast while I made my tea. I packed up our luggage and helped my mom put clean sheets on the bed. Then we hugged goodbye and Angel and I were on our way.
Before leaving Caldwell, I stopped at Walmart to buy some produce. There was a bunch of produce on sale and I bought a lot. I plan on juicing and making lots of smoothies and salads. I’m going to eat all raw again to feel young, healthy and vibrant. It’s clear to me what I need to do to get rid of the inflammation in my body and my mind.
It was really foggy outside and I drove the backroads. The GPS showed that it would only take me 8 more minutes taking the back roads. Worth it! On to way, I had a cleaning opportunity in Cambridge that I was going to stop and do before going home. Angel and I listened to a Nancy Drew audiobook on the drive. I enjoyed the drive even though it’s was foggy and I couldn’t see any of the beautiful scenery. It was still beautiful in a foggy way.
We arrived at my cleaning opportunity right on time. Angel did her schoolwork while I cleaned. My client was happy with how thorough of a job I did and is having me come once a week. Yay! I’m starting to get enough income to live off of. I’ve going back and forth between stressing about money and living in faith. Faith is much more peaceful.
When we got home from cleaning, I ate the last of my homemade pumpkin pie even though I needed to use up some of my bananas and I knew a smoothie was my best choice. I knew I was feeding my flesh and turning away from Gods guidance.
I unloaded the truck and put away groceries and our luggage. Then I took a nap while Angel played with her Legos. I slept hard for about 2 hours. When I woke up, Angel was still playing with her legos. I went downstairs and took a long bath. I was still feeling really groggy and my mind was cloudy. My sister came home while I was bathing and when I got out, we talked for a few minutes. Then my sister and Angel played video games. I went upstairs and painted rocks until it was time to go to women’s Bible study.
The walk to church cleared some of the cobwebs out of my mind but I was still feeling groggy during Bible study. There were cookies and brownies there for everyone to eat. They were tempting me, calling my name, whispering in my ear. I prayed for strength and left quickly when Bible study was over in order to resist the temptation. As I walked home, I was in a full blown state of depression. I prayed and asked God if I was where I was supposed to be. The answer was yes. I asked how I was supposed to shine my light when I kept feeling so depressed. The response was, you know that the energy you put inside you is the energy you experience. Eat high energy food, put vibrant high nutrient fresh food in your body. This isn’t a new lesson. You need to experience the contrast of depression to remind you to follow my guidance and keep your focus on me. Feeding the flesh is a low energy way to live. Lean not on your own understanding and follow me. I will not lead you astray. Eat high energy food, it is the food I have created for you. Embrace it and you will be transformed. I responded, yes and thank you.
When I got home, my sister was going to bed and Angel was upstairs. I went up and told Angel it was time for bed. She wanted to sleep with me. I reluctantly agreed, not sure if I was up for another restless night. I was too tired to read stories and we went straight to bed. I put on a sleep meditation and we fell asleep right away at 10 pm.
Thank you for reading my blog and being a part of my life. I appreciate you.
Love, Victoria
P.S. this blog post was inspired by the Holy Spirit.